Hello, my name is Brenda by birth. I really like dressin up. I love books and photography. I hate lizards, insects, things that slime or crawl.Neither do i like gore or violent films.
AM WATCHING MY LIFE FROM FIFTY FEET.
And nope, im not delusional. not yet
screams
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Alone.
Today I never felt more alone. I was facing so much.
Suddenly, I have a 10k target to meet in 4 days. And accusations of things that I'm not guilty of. I feel neglected and alone. And helpless.
But yes, I am alone.
There is no one here anymore. I have to face all these alone, and all the stress at work. And just when I was about to just go home and hide in my room. I get yelled at.
I get no peace at all. Not at work , not at home. I just want a place or somewhere i could run to. I no longer hope for someone.
Everyone is gonna leave you. When you get too dependent, then you'll lose. You lose everything when then person leaves. You lose yourself, and your only pillar - wait, more of what you thought was your pillar.
Okay I speak no further. I just want to cry. In solitude.
Monday, September 24, 2012
They say silence is a girl's loudest cry.
Well quoted.
Then again, you keep silent because you just see no point fighting anymore.
Then comes people that uses it against you. They use it for knowing you will not defend yourself. Do not let people get this advantage over you. Always know when to start speaking up for yourself. I did.
2012, I've learnt to keep comments to myself. Yes. Just being silent. Do not meddle in other people's hearsay. And gossip mongers will starve. Those who gossip with you will gossip about you.
And that your past will haunt you. Sadly, you let those you trust in on the deepest darkest secrets, but then when the affair ends, it's all ugly. Just your past will be uglier. You can't totally remove a nailed hole from wood, when the nail is removed, the hole remains. Then the hole will decay and rot. Then gets bigger and bigger. Just like an exposed wound.
She's that girl
The name 'Brenda' stands for 'sword', which I perceive as being linked to violence. But no, I don't see myself as a violent person. The most I do is curse and swear like a sailor, and perhaps punch a few pillows and kick a few walls. But I'd never lay a finger on people(or so i claim).
And also. according to bestf, i'll combust without guys.
To top that up, you will have not problem trying to spot me along the streets.With my not-exactly-very-toned-down hair, and my shorts,yes, Singapore's way to hot to be in jeans.
Personality wise, I'm close to being crazy. I drive people nuts when the inner bitch release.So in short,you can either say that I brighten up your life, or that I drive you up the wall. It can only be one way or the other. No in-betweens.
Basically, I have a problem with authority.I never liked being told what to do and when told not to do something, all the more i'd do it-just to annoy the person (like,duh.)
Yours truly,do not believe in rules-strapped life, strongly thinks that life should be lived the way you want to and no compromises made.Of course minus the reality chunk.Partying is like a hobbie to me, just like how stamp collecting is to other, but partying is much more fun!
Not only does it allows me to meet interesting personas of all kind and yes, grooving to the music is a great workout- keeps me very much in shape.My girls are the bestest people to club with,ever
In case you failed to figure, my girls are one of the greatest thing that happened to me in life.Friends are a whole big deal in my life, plays a huge part in major break-ups and events.By and by, i love them to bits and they know it.
I have the tendancy to forget what i want to say mid-sentence,so just let me finish.I'm not as dramatic as so many friends claimed.I hate crossing the roads, proudly proclaimed my love for whipcreme,icecreams and cakes. I can be completely bought over by sweet treats, Starbucks and surprises.Small details matters alot to me, a little gesture, a smile, and kids warms my heart.I love that warm fuzzy feeling i get when watch kids play.
I'm not exactly the most random person you will find around and am totally,erm, not a bimbo.
Meanwhile, please make do with the photos untill i get better ones.
Today I never felt more alone. I was facing so much.
Suddenly, I have a 10k target to meet in 4 days. And accusations of things that I'm not guilty of. I feel neglected and alone. And helpless.
But yes, I am alone.
There is no one here anymore. I have to face all these alone, and all the stress at work. And just when I was about to just go home and hide in my room. I get yelled at.
I get no peace at all. Not at work , not at home. I just want a place or somewhere i could run to. I no longer hope for someone.
Everyone is gonna leave you. When you get too dependent, then you'll lose. You lose everything when then person leaves. You lose yourself, and your only pillar - wait, more of what you thought was your pillar.
Okay I speak no further. I just want to cry. In solitude.
Monday, September 24, 2012
They say silence is a girl's loudest cry.
Well quoted.
Then again, you keep silent because you just see no point fighting anymore.
Then comes people that uses it against you. They use it for knowing you will not defend yourself. Do not let people get this advantage over you. Always know when to start speaking up for yourself. I did.
2012, I've learnt to keep comments to myself. Yes. Just being silent. Do not meddle in other people's hearsay. And gossip mongers will starve. Those who gossip with you will gossip about you.
And that your past will haunt you. Sadly, you let those you trust in on the deepest darkest secrets, but then when the affair ends, it's all ugly. Just your past will be uglier. You can't totally remove a nailed hole from wood, when the nail is removed, the hole remains. Then the hole will decay and rot. Then gets bigger and bigger. Just like an exposed wound.
