Hello, my name is Brenda by birth. I really like dressin up. I love books and photography. I hate lizards, insects, things that slime or crawl.Neither do i like gore or violent films.
AM WATCHING MY LIFE FROM FIFTY FEET.
And nope, im not delusional. not yet
screams
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Granny, please tell me you will be fine
It’s 5:21am.I don’t know how to feel or what to do. Just a day ago at this time, you were still poking fun at me. Telling me how late I sleep(:
But now you are lying on the hospital bed. Can you promise me you’ll be ok.
The doctors will do their best right? I am on the way down to see you. I have been such a bad grand-daughter, I’ve taken you for granted. Though i have never been sweet-lipped and all, I’m sure you know I love you.
I love you for the food that you prepare. I love you for being the cool granny, I love you for being understanding- more than my parents have been. I love you for being fun to talk to. All the times that we had when I was a whole lot younger at the factory you used to work at. I love you for the times when you had to look for me in the wet market after grocery shopping. Times when you and me just go out to eat fatty and " forbidden " food. When you and I both crave for weird food and end up buying too much that we can’t finish (:
We will do loads more when you come home ok? Meanwhile I will be with you while you recuperate at the hosipital. See you in 30 mins.
Loves<3
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
When everything is coming your way, you are in the wrong lane
Meaning, my life is normal. Because nothing is going right for me. Mess ups are a common sight. Quizzes are coming soon- no more party till ZoukOut I guess(even that is pending).
Thought I feel like life’s mundane and all. But know what, I’m still alive. I bled from my gums today, and watching the blood swirl down the drainhole.pretty sight. Helps me know that I’m alive.
Nevermind the trials, Take it in stride baby!
Monday, November 23, 2009
Mess in a Dress
God sent me amazing friends. Whom I get all the laughter, tears and in this case – whining from.
And it dawn on me when I am feeling lost and confused (notice the negetive expressions) no one is actually there for me to fall on. I just can’t help but really feel sad for myself. It hurts to see how insensitive one can get. Spare a thought for me, people out there. The fact that the crossfire didn’t even involve me in the first place, and I end up being one of the badly injured. Why and how has it became my problem? Am I being exploited of my kindness? It’s an ugly thing to say- then again it’s time to put myself first.
Why so serious ( the stupid may ask)? I think the drama is taking it’s toll on me.
This is the worst kind of situation for one to get caught in. Don’t tell me all this is rubbish. Be honest and admit to yourselves – you all know what is the problem, dont tell me things like i am trying to change and all. Its clear to all whether you are putting in effort or not. I ain’t blind or deaf.
sidenote: I’m just done with paranormal activity, it was just mediocre. Honest. Oh did I mention the cinema crowd was classic – there were chair-kicking, laughter outburst despite it being a horror movie.
Guess with that i shall end my post.
Too tired for drama.
Friday, November 20, 2009
"you can't airbrush personality"
sometimes, things are beyond your control.
but nevertheless, you still have to keep it under control.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
" i could hardly breathe "
scariest fact: you actually know i am failing to live.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Fucked up & flawed
Sometimes I feel that there's a hole inside of me; an emptiness that acts at times seems to burn I have this dream of being whole.Not going to bed each night wanting.But still sometimes, when the wind is warm and the crickest sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I guess i just want someone to love me.
Down to my last chunk of my 2nd family block of chocolates, i am stll feeling as i started out feeling. Its not working, the chocolates are not as fantastic as claimed to heal upsetness- if thereis even such a word that is.
Tonight CSI didn't help. It did not take my mind off things, but then again, there was nothing on my mind.I have random craves of KTV, and whatnots. Hope Whose's line issit anyway does the job now.
OK, i dont remember what i wanted to say anymore.
sidenote; i think i've lost general interest in guys.
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
SAVE THE HYPOCRISY
(for the blind)
Monday, November 02, 2009
Yours truly was actually honest enough to admit to the lecturer that I missed class because I have 4 hours break and the lack of motivation.
Crashed a module with Doris, who was kind enough to donate her break to me! They had fluid mechanic or someting, was trying to figure out math though. Honestly, fuck it. My fate with Math is supposed to be like 2 parallel lines that were never meant to cross or even meet.
Now towards the last hour of the fateful long break, I have finally figured out the general power formula all by myself.
And I really hate Mondays. Not only I have to fight the blues, I have to wrestle time. This might be the only light at the end of the tunnel, there is no school on Tuesday .
Sidenote: My weekend was a blast. Now it's time to catch up.
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She's that girl
The name 'Brenda' stands for 'sword', which I perceive as being linked to violence. But no, I don't see myself as a violent person. The most I do is curse and swear like a sailor, and perhaps punch a few pillows and kick a few walls. But I'd never lay a finger on people(or so i claim).
And also. according to bestf, i'll combust without guys.
To top that up, you will have not problem trying to spot me along the streets.With my not-exactly-very-toned-down hair, and my shorts,yes, Singapore's way to hot to be in jeans.
Personality wise, I'm close to being crazy. I drive people nuts when the inner bitch release.So in short,you can either say that I brighten up your life, or that I drive you up the wall. It can only be one way or the other. No in-betweens.
Basically, I have a problem with authority.I never liked being told what to do and when told not to do something, all the more i'd do it-just to annoy the person (like,duh.)
Yours truly,do not believe in rules-strapped life, strongly thinks that life should be lived the way you want to and no compromises made.Of course minus the reality chunk.Partying is like a hobbie to me, just like how stamp collecting is to other, but partying is much more fun!
Not only does it allows me to meet interesting personas of all kind and yes, grooving to the music is a great workout- keeps me very much in shape.My girls are the bestest people to club with,ever
In case you failed to figure, my girls are one of the greatest thing that happened to me in life.Friends are a whole big deal in my life, plays a huge part in major break-ups and events.By and by, i love them to bits and they know it.
I have the tendancy to forget what i want to say mid-sentence,so just let me finish.I'm not as dramatic as so many friends claimed.I hate crossing the roads, proudly proclaimed my love for whipcreme,icecreams and cakes. I can be completely bought over by sweet treats, Starbucks and surprises.Small details matters alot to me, a little gesture, a smile, and kids warms my heart.I love that warm fuzzy feeling i get when watch kids play.
I'm not exactly the most random person you will find around and am totally,erm, not a bimbo.
Meanwhile, please make do with the photos untill i get better ones.
It’s 5:21am.I don’t know how to feel or what to do. Just a day ago at this time, you were still poking fun at me. Telling me how late I sleep(:
But now you are lying on the hospital bed. Can you promise me you’ll be ok.
The doctors will do their best right? I am on the way down to see you. I have been such a bad grand-daughter, I’ve taken you for granted. Though i have never been sweet-lipped and all, I’m sure you know I love you.
I love you for the food that you prepare. I love you for being the cool granny, I love you for being understanding- more than my parents have been. I love you for being fun to talk to. All the times that we had when I was a whole lot younger at the factory you used to work at. I love you for the times when you had to look for me in the wet market after grocery shopping. Times when you and me just go out to eat fatty and " forbidden " food. When you and I both crave for weird food and end up buying too much that we can’t finish (:
We will do loads more when you come home ok? Meanwhile I will be with you while you recuperate at the hosipital. See you in 30 mins.
Loves<3
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
When everything is coming your way, you are in the wrong lane
Meaning, my life is normal. Because nothing is going right for me. Mess ups are a common sight. Quizzes are coming soon- no more party till ZoukOut I guess(even that is pending).
Thought I feel like life’s mundane and all. But know what, I’m still alive. I bled from my gums today, and watching the blood swirl down the drainhole.pretty sight. Helps me know that I’m alive.
Nevermind the trials, Take it in stride baby!
Monday, November 23, 2009
Mess in a Dress
God sent me amazing friends. Whom I get all the laughter, tears and in this case – whining from.
And it dawn on me when I am feeling lost and confused (notice the negetive expressions) no one is actually there for me to fall on. I just can’t help but really feel sad for myself. It hurts to see how insensitive one can get. Spare a thought for me, people out there. The fact that the crossfire didn’t even involve me in the first place, and I end up being one of the badly injured. Why and how has it became my problem? Am I being exploited of my kindness? It’s an ugly thing to say- then again it’s time to put myself first.
Why so serious ( the stupid may ask)? I think the drama is taking it’s toll on me.
This is the worst kind of situation for one to get caught in. Don’t tell me all this is rubbish. Be honest and admit to yourselves – you all know what is the problem, dont tell me things like i am trying to change and all. Its clear to all whether you are putting in effort or not. I ain’t blind or deaf.
sidenote: I’m just done with paranormal activity, it was just mediocre. Honest. Oh did I mention the cinema crowd was classic – there were chair-kicking, laughter outburst despite it being a horror movie.
Guess with that i shall end my post.
Too tired for drama.
Friday, November 20, 2009
"you can't airbrush personality"
sometimes, things are beyond your control.
but nevertheless, you still have to keep it under control.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
" i could hardly breathe "
scariest fact: you actually know i am failing to live.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Fucked up & flawed
Sometimes I feel that there's a hole inside of me; an emptiness that acts at times seems to burn I have this dream of being whole.Not going to bed each night wanting.But still sometimes, when the wind is warm and the crickest sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I guess i just want someone to love me.
Down to my last chunk of my 2nd family block of chocolates, i am stll feeling as i started out feeling. Its not working, the chocolates are not as fantastic as claimed to heal upsetness- if thereis even such a word that is.
Tonight CSI didn't help. It did not take my mind off things, but then again, there was nothing on my mind.I have random craves of KTV, and whatnots. Hope Whose's line issit anyway does the job now.
OK, i dont remember what i wanted to say anymore.
sidenote; i think i've lost general interest in guys.
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
SAVE THE HYPOCRISY
(for the blind)
Monday, November 02, 2009
Yours truly was actually honest enough to admit to the lecturer that I missed class because I have 4 hours break and the lack of motivation.
Crashed a module with Doris, who was kind enough to donate her break to me! They had fluid mechanic or someting, was trying to figure out math though. Honestly, fuck it. My fate with Math is supposed to be like 2 parallel lines that were never meant to cross or even meet.
Now towards the last hour of the fateful long break, I have finally figured out the general power formula all by myself.
And I really hate Mondays. Not only I have to fight the blues, I have to wrestle time. This might be the only light at the end of the tunnel, there is no school on Tuesday .
Sidenote: My weekend was a blast. Now it's time to catch up.
