as told by her.♥

Saturday, November 29, 2008

" i reckon that it is going to be a bad day at work."

when you are too nice, people tend to take you for granted

this sucks, its as if i was obligated to do it for you.

it was a favour

FUCK IT.

Monday, November 24, 2008

aiyeer, i just toppled over a whole container of transparent thumbtacks.

its all over the floor now.

i dont know how many are there in total, so im going to pick up what i can see.

i dont want to end up making the headlines tomorrow.

careless girl pricks herself to death upon waking up.

not funny.

its 3.29

i have so many things to do

my sketches, PDI journal.

i havent water my pet.

(yes, i have a pet cactus)

i dont know what i am doing online at this hour but whatever,I AM ONLINE.

i dont quite look forward to school because i have nothing to look forward to about.

i'd rather study alone in the library and @starbucks then go to a class

a class of people who i cant match names to faces.

in someway i think im the anti.

honestly

according to ivan, i am fat

so im on a strict diet and im doing sit ups

and sets of flutter-kicks

3months

ohhh,

i think i miss the sun.

and i want to do salsa.

bestf,thank you for being there all the time.

now too, @ 3.40am.

without you.

i think i wont last this far!

and gfs around,

pillars of support.

i just need a bit more time.

bear with me.

❤

xoxo, brenda

edit://fuck the paragraphing- 5 times already

Sunday, November 23, 2008

"these foolish games, are tearing me apart.

and your thoughtless words are breaking me heart."

here is tough love: people will leave you just as you left them.

there will be nowhere to turn and you will only get moving if you stop freaking out,

quit being weak and retreating from anything that seems honestly hard for you.

And there will always be new people to distract you and drink up your energy,

suck away your time in the guise of helping you

i dont know what can be the way you can be,

just find a core of focus somewhere in you and learn to make it .

TRY AND FAIL.

all you can do i nothing

but..

TRY HARDER.

all i asked for was to love you.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

back when love begins..

0410.

im still awake

dont ask.

the feelings are back to haunt

when i force myself to not think of you,

dreams are what i get.

paint me a picture of you and me please.

i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish
i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish

i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish

i wish i wish i wish i wish i wish

dream on

*********************

"if only tears could bring you back"

Saturday, November 15, 2008

There's one thing I have to say so I'll be brave

You were what I wanted, I gave what I gave

I'm not sorry I met you

I'm not sorry it's over

I'm sorry there's nothing to save

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

i miss you like fuck.

there is nothing i can do.

i did something that will remind me.

by the time BFF reads this, she will kill me.

yes bff, he is the reason.

**

i still have a hell load of sketching to do.

but i cannot bring myself to start doing it.

i cant even bring myself to start thinking about other stuffs.

its just you.

honey, kill me.

*************************************

"It's been a long time

Since we walked that aisle together

And you became my wife

And who would've thought

You would fall for someone just like me

For the best days of my life

I may not be a poet

Cause I ain't so good on words

I may not stand before you

Like a knight in shining armor

I may not be the best of singers

There's better guys I've heard

But I know how to love

I know how to love you well

You got your faults

And I don't need to tell you

I've got mine

Well I guess they all even out

Wherever I ride

The thought of you turns water into wine

And somehow I lose a crowd

I may not drive a fancy car

I don't know what it's for

I may not be the one

Who gets to shower you in diamonds

I may not be a rich man

But you can't call me poor

Cause I know how to love

I know how to love you well

As we skip the light Fandango

From that old jukebox by the bar

Now honey, don't it make you wonder

How we ever got this far

I may not be a poet

Cause I ain't got much to say

I may not stand before you

Like that knight in shining armor

I may not be the best of singers

Honey that's ok

Cause I know how to love

I know how to love

I know how to love You well"

i really still wish you were mine.

and i guess, this time round.you took my heart.

❤

Monday, November 10, 2008

i forgot to bring my sketches.

how smart.

SO THATS WHAT I HAVE FORGOTTEN.

and im done with my presentation.

and im off to meet bestf.

and jy.

<3

tah dah.

i left house knowing that i forgot something..

i know its something important.

but i dint remember what it was.

DIE luh.

Friday, November 07, 2008

hey babes.admit it,if you dont see your faces here, means you've been missing for quite some time.

come call me quick!

GUILTY RIGHT.

i having class at 8 later,bestf is having her paper at 10.

woots,good luck uh.

friday is numbers day.

i have all mathematical lectures,

whatever since batt is runing low and i refuse to plug in.

im gg off.

(L)

i think im too pretty for math

i miss.....