Hello, my name is Brenda by birth. I really like dressin up. I love books and photography. I hate lizards, insects, things that slime or crawl.Neither do i like gore or violent films.
AM WATCHING MY LIFE FROM FIFTY FEET.
And nope, im not delusional. not yet
screams
Monday, June 27, 2011
I wish i could put all my thoughts in a jar. I think too much.
Thinking too much causes me to over think and analyze things I don't want to deal with .
It gets too much for me to handle and i panic.
I shut myself down and go to war with myself.
I'm tired. I'm sick of being tired. I don't like who i am , but i have to live with it.
I don't know what I am doing . I'm sick of feeling sad.
Sick of wanting things and and people I can't have.
I want to be at peace with myself for once.
To be happy and think about things that doesn't send me over to the edge.
Monday, June 13, 2011
There is always a possiblity that a person can get attracted to another.
It's human nature and it's not wrong.
But, when you are in a commitment, you should discipline yourself. One may get attracted to another in numerous prospects and it's ok. As long as you don't nurse the feeling and won't do anything about it. Border line between cheating and faithfulness.
Recognise the reality that you already has the person that can give you what you can get from the 'cheap' thrills of attraction.
-end-
Thursday, June 09, 2011
I don't know if you've ever felt like that.
That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years.
Or just did not exist.
Or just not want to be aware that you actually exist.
Just something like that.
I think wanting that is very morbid, but i want it when i get like this.
That's why I'm trying not to think.
I just want it to stop spinning.
And ,It's getting that bad again.
She's that girl
The name 'Brenda' stands for 'sword', which I perceive as being linked to violence. But no, I don't see myself as a violent person. The most I do is curse and swear like a sailor, and perhaps punch a few pillows and kick a few walls. But I'd never lay a finger on people(or so i claim).
And also. according to bestf, i'll combust without guys.
To top that up, you will have not problem trying to spot me along the streets.With my not-exactly-very-toned-down hair, and my shorts,yes, Singapore's way to hot to be in jeans.
Personality wise, I'm close to being crazy. I drive people nuts when the inner bitch release.So in short,you can either say that I brighten up your life, or that I drive you up the wall. It can only be one way or the other. No in-betweens.
Basically, I have a problem with authority.I never liked being told what to do and when told not to do something, all the more i'd do it-just to annoy the person (like,duh.)
Yours truly,do not believe in rules-strapped life, strongly thinks that life should be lived the way you want to and no compromises made.Of course minus the reality chunk.Partying is like a hobbie to me, just like how stamp collecting is to other, but partying is much more fun!
Not only does it allows me to meet interesting personas of all kind and yes, grooving to the music is a great workout- keeps me very much in shape.My girls are the bestest people to club with,ever
In case you failed to figure, my girls are one of the greatest thing that happened to me in life.Friends are a whole big deal in my life, plays a huge part in major break-ups and events.By and by, i love them to bits and they know it.
I have the tendancy to forget what i want to say mid-sentence,so just let me finish.I'm not as dramatic as so many friends claimed.I hate crossing the roads, proudly proclaimed my love for whipcreme,icecreams and cakes. I can be completely bought over by sweet treats, Starbucks and surprises.Small details matters alot to me, a little gesture, a smile, and kids warms my heart.I love that warm fuzzy feeling i get when watch kids play.
I'm not exactly the most random person you will find around and am totally,erm, not a bimbo.
Meanwhile, please make do with the photos untill i get better ones.
I wish i could put all my thoughts in a jar. I think too much.
Thinking too much causes me to over think and analyze things I don't want to deal with .
It gets too much for me to handle and i panic.
I shut myself down and go to war with myself.
I'm tired. I'm sick of being tired. I don't like who i am , but i have to live with it.
I don't know what I am doing . I'm sick of feeling sad.
Sick of wanting things and and people I can't have.
I want to be at peace with myself for once.
To be happy and think about things that doesn't send me over to the edge.
Monday, June 13, 2011
There is always a possiblity that a person can get attracted to another.
It's human nature and it's not wrong.
But, when you are in a commitment, you should discipline yourself. One may get attracted to another in numerous prospects and it's ok. As long as you don't nurse the feeling and won't do anything about it. Border line between cheating and faithfulness.
Recognise the reality that you already has the person that can give you what you can get from the 'cheap' thrills of attraction.
-end-
Thursday, June 09, 2011
I don't know if you've ever felt like that.
That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years.
Or just did not exist.
Or just not want to be aware that you actually exist.
Just something like that.
I think wanting that is very morbid, but i want it when i get like this.
