as told by her.♥

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♥ brenda

Hello, my name is Brenda by birth. I really like dressin up. I love books and photography. I hate lizards, insects, things that slime or crawl.Neither do i like gore or violent films.

AM WATCHING MY LIFE FROM FIFTY FEET.

And nope, im not delusional.
~~not yet~~

screams

Wednesday, April 06, 2011

I've been sitting here for the past few hours doing nothing but staring at my screens - tv , lappy and phone.

Then it hit me, what am i doing with my life?

I haven't been headed out, let less dating.Quit partying, yes, read that again if you please. Got sick of Zouk, for that is probably the only place i party at.

I don't know who i have become, or who i have always been.WHAT ON EARTH HAPPENED?

Somehow, i wish someone gave a damn.

I have a bestf that has been hiber-dating - a state of being in a relationship where she starts ignoring whoever else that was involved in her live except the boyfriend. Who goes missing and totally not contactable. I don't even remember when was the last time i actually spent proper time with her, with that i mean without interruption. I really have got no idea how to feel or what to say with the situation.

I swear the people around me are going to find me over-bearing and sensitive. But I've been too strong for too long. Coping with everything and taking all on my shoulders. Then again, everyone is probably too busy with their own problems.

We are having constant conversation talking about nothing, i tried to talk, speak up. then the conversation gets all heated up in a whole new direction- which is away from my initial conversation.

Then comes my social circle, the people that seems to be there that aren't exactly there.

The people that I meet 3 times a week, spend alot of time with. I don't even know if i can connect proper.Not saying they are a bad bunch, they are nice people, just that i don't quite know what to expect of them.

I love them, but can i handle?

Everyday, i wake up to nothing. I feel so empty but who knows.

WHO CARES.

I want to fall in love but there seem to be a invisible barrier between me and whoever.

I cannot seem to trust anyone, and therefore I cannot love.

With this I end my post.

Headed for bed, going to sleep and waking up to nothing again tomorrow.

Nights.

She's that girl

The name 'Brenda' stands for 'sword', which I perceive as being linked to violence. But no, I don't see myself as a violent person. The most I do is curse and swear like a sailor, and perhaps punch a few pillows and kick a few walls. But I'd never lay a finger on people(or so i claim).

And also. according to bestf, i'll combust without guys.

To top that up, you will have not problem trying to spot me along the streets.With my not-exactly-very-toned-down hair, and my shorts,yes, Singapore's way to hot to be in jeans.

Personality wise, I'm close to being crazy. I drive people nuts when the inner bitch release.So in short,you can either say that I brighten up your life, or that I drive you up the wall. It can only be one way or the other. No in-betweens.

Basically, I have a problem with authority.I never liked being told what to do and when told not to do something, all the more i'd do it-just to annoy the person (like,duh.)

Yours truly,do not believe in rules-strapped life, strongly thinks that life should be lived the way you want to and no compromises made.Of course minus the reality chunk.Partying is like a hobbie to me, just like how stamp collecting is to other, but partying is much more fun! Not only does it allows me to meet interesting personas of all kind and yes, grooving to the music is a great workout- keeps me very much in shape.My girls are the bestest people to club with,ever

In case you failed to figure, my girls are one of the greatest thing that happened to me in life.Friends are a whole big deal in my life, plays a huge part in major break-ups and events.By and by, i love them to bits and they know it.

I have the tendancy to forget what i want to say mid-sentence,so just let me finish.I'm not as dramatic as so ~~many~~ friends claimed.I hate crossing the roads, proudly proclaimed my love for whipcreme,icecreams and cakes. I can be completely bought over by sweet treats, Starbucks and surprises.Small details matters alot to me, a little gesture, a smile, and kids warms my heart.I love that warm fuzzy feeling i get when watch kids play. I'm not exactly the most random person you will find around and am totally,erm, not a bimbo.

Meanwhile, please make do with the photos untill i get better ones.